My eyes are so big & swollen when i woke up this morning. Thats for sleeping late at 3 ystrdy! Completing resume for scholarship applications. Cis kalo tak dpt scholarship mmg tak berbaloi. Also did some catching up with my bestie, Asifa. Rindunyeee. I so wanna see you guys after SPM. Since none of us kena NS kan, maknanye die nak suruh kita hang out bersama2 la tu. ;))
Well, I'll be back at school this evening. && guess what, the next time I'll be at home again is during Raya. RAYA I TELL U. Puasa memang tak balik lamsum. Hish nasib baik dah nak abis skola. Oh dan nasib baik tak dapat NS hehehe. I so wanna be a potato couch and ternak isi dan lemak after SPM. tee hee.
P/S: To whom it may concern, kudos for demotivating me. Grr Grr.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Stupefy
I am not good with expressing emotions. Specifically misery. Not a good thing i can assure. I so envy those who can cry very easily, poof we know, she's in grief. Or those who turns into a Hulk when they get mad. Yea big fat sign of "do not disturb". But what happen when somebody goes smiling all day long when shes really pissed off? When shes is so messed up but crying is impossible, and she gets hurt even more? No,its not a question of pretending. But its just how I am used to hold and bottle up my feelings. Its like blowing it into a balloon. I need somebody to poke that balloon with a needle. Gosh the most pathetic metaphore ever.
Hmm so lets see, the longest I can stand being moody is like erm 10 minutes. I just dont get it when people can actually be so not in the mood for like days. Im really amazed. Like WOW ok. Even when I really reeally reaaally dont feel like talking at all, I would end up talking to the next person who nudge me. I mean I really dont feel like conversing but I just cant ignore people like that. Thats really mean. And again Im just so amazed by those who can just completely ignore people around her. Its a skill I'd love to learn. I think Im too nice sometimes. It feels nice when we get things out of our chest aite? But I just dont know how. Sigh. Like totally ok.
This is not healthy. Im a girl for god's sake. The gender which suppose to be all emotional and yet I dont know how to be one. I need to go for a counselling. This is eating me inside. My God I am super pathetic.
& shoots my blog is so fugly. need to renovate it! like a.s.a.p
Hmm so lets see, the longest I can stand being moody is like erm 10 minutes. I just dont get it when people can actually be so not in the mood for like days. Im really amazed. Like WOW ok. Even when I really reeally reaaally dont feel like talking at all, I would end up talking to the next person who nudge me. I mean I really dont feel like conversing but I just cant ignore people like that. Thats really mean. And again Im just so amazed by those who can just completely ignore people around her. Its a skill I'd love to learn. I think Im too nice sometimes. It feels nice when we get things out of our chest aite? But I just dont know how. Sigh. Like totally ok.
This is not healthy. Im a girl for god's sake. The gender which suppose to be all emotional and yet I dont know how to be one. I need to go for a counselling. This is eating me inside. My God I am super pathetic.
& shoots my blog is so fugly. need to renovate it! like a.s.a.p
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