Fairytales

You know how easy they made it seems in the movies? They made falling in and out of love look so simple. All you need in finding the right guy is a summer vacation, a little bit of romance and conflicts. He's filthy rich but he doesn't wanna tell you cause you might get inferior. You're ugly, he's handsome. But he sees things people don't see in you. And how it's a "happy ever after" ending.

And how the awkward weird girl, will always find her way top. That shy girl will always catch the hottie's attention in a party.

You know things like that. They only happen in movies. 

Whatever

When things get so hard and when I don't know what the hell am I studying, I tend to close my eyes and imagine myself doing something else, somewhere else. I'll stalk my friends doing arts, literature, architecture, musics. And every time I ended up heaving a deep sigh. This cruel thought starts to dwell.

How on earth did I end up taking up Dentistry? 

How on earth did I end up here of all places?

Right. I forgot. I was the one who made the decision. 

Anyhow.

I'd imagine myself taking up language or literature instead. Reading all the sonnets and poems. And writing all those short stories. Going deep into the emotions of written fictions. Drown myself in the ocean of beautifully intertwined words from Rudyard Kipling, Kahlil Gibran, Emily Bronte and the list goes on.  Ah I'll definitely love those! It has always been my passion. To read, to express and to educate. But hey hang on... I'm not really good at expressing. I can't do with due dates. I don't always have the creative juice. Oh. I figure, I'm not good at this after all.

And then I imagined myself going into musics. Bleh who am I kidding, I don't even know how to read music notes or the score sheets. I didn't even have a proper musical education. Ah I won't be good in this either. 

What else? Probably architecture ! I knew it ! I knew I should have just stuck to Engineering Drawing class instead of changing to pure science when I was in high school. I'll be a good architect. Yes, yes, that is definitely what I SHOULD be. Erm. Wait. Didn't I used to hate the orthographic projection? And I sucked at making perfect straight lines cause I have the least steady hands in class. 

Oh this can't be. I am no good in anything! 

Oh no what should I do? 

Ah-ha! Maybe I'll just get married. That'll solve the problems. Silly me. I still wake up late in the morning. I'm super lazy when it comes to cooking. I hate doing laundry. And I am so not child-friendly. Crap, this one's out of the list.

Ho ho. Does that mean.....
Ah. What a pleasant surprise. I'm not good in anything. Oh what a failure! Yeay me!

Quoting a friend,
"Can I go all hipster, drop out and go backpacking instead?"

Eat Pray Love

"If you are brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting and set out on a truth-seeking journey, and if you are truly willing to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue, and if you accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and if you are prepared - most of all - to face (and forgive) some very difficult realities about yourself....then truth will not be withheld from you"

- Eat Pray Love

Open your heart and regard everything that happened as teachers. Learn. Understand. You, yourself, and everything that made you who you are today. 

Accept and forgive. 

For if you don't, nobody else would.

Appreciate.

And be grateful.