I have around two weeks to go until final starts. I've been practically eating, sleeping, walking and shitting final exams and all the materials that I have to cover. But even with all these knowledge I've been trying to digest, I'll always feel there's more that I don't know. Ah idk, there's more to life than exams but i really want to ace this.
I miss that feeling in school, of being confident over something i know i'm good at. I need to be good at at least one thing? Nowadays, my self confidence is garbage. The only thing i'm good at is sleeping lol. Be it in the clinics, knowledge-wise, socially..the struggle is real af. I really need to be my old self again. Well this is not school anymore. So, grow up please.
I looked so damn pucat and tired
Anyway, these are the people who have watched me grow these 5 years. Where i did stupid things, dated stupid guys, got mad over undone dishes, got cyber-bullied by seniors and everything under the sun. I know we weren't as close as we used to be, we stopped eating meals together, we don't go to class together, we don't solat jemaah together anymore. We're so busy with ourselves nowadays that we rarely have time for each other. But i hope you guys know how much i love each and every single person of you. Even though most of the time nowadays i only keep to myself in my room. Even though i don't smile in the mornings, i'm not really the one you guys come to for comfort, even if i'm the laziest when it comes to call air/gas/pakcik. But pls know that i appreciate all the things you've done for me, the things we did together and places we went together. In a few months time we'll "disband" Bayt Kampung and say goodbye to each other. No more dealing with mesin basuh rosak, vacuum tak jalan, sakhonah tak leh on, pam air tak naik.
Bayt Kampung will always have a special place in my heart. And i hope we'll always remain mates although we don't live in the same house anymore.
