I know this time will come, but never thought it would be so soon. Alas a lil surprised, i believe it's the best thing to do. I have always known that whoever you lean on won't be there forever for you to depend. Eventually, it's always you against the world. That's when you realized God is great and only God is sufficient for you. Can't help to feel vulnerable again...
Anyway.
Despite all that i believe in, i found myself getting emotionally involved with my current partner. We're doing yet another LDR but it's fine with me so far. I like how straight up and confident he is. Every time we talked about our relationship he truly showed how committed he is with it and he promised to make it happen someday. Doesn't seem to bother or burden him whenever we talk about marriage. Which i really am attracted to. It's fairly too early to tell, but i find comfort in talking to him. I find peace letting out my emotions to him knowing he doesn't judge. I genuinely hopes and prays this is the one for me. I am not one to blindly expects people to keep their promises. But i have a feeling his promise to me was real and it turns up the way i wanted it to be.
I hope God agrees with my plans and set up an easy path towards my goal. Insha Allah.
Haih these days are very empty. I longed for that place and person i can call home. I've been commuting and making random places my temporary home for the longest time. I am still young but I am not getting younger. I want a home, i want you to be my home. And hopefully if we ever find ourselves getting there some day, i would look back at this post and remember how bad i wanted that to happen. So i can thank God and the universe for finally aligning our stars.
This post is a reminder that i am capable to fall in love, that i am capable of being emotionally attached to another person. I am never heartless. It's just that i care about people too much that it sometimes backfire on me. Coping mechanism struck me to put on a hard and steely facade. Deep inside i know i am not. It's okay to let down my guard and let people how gooey i can be.
I'm a broken soul. God sent you to fix it for me. I can't imagine losing you.
Please never leave.
Anyway.
Despite all that i believe in, i found myself getting emotionally involved with my current partner. We're doing yet another LDR but it's fine with me so far. I like how straight up and confident he is. Every time we talked about our relationship he truly showed how committed he is with it and he promised to make it happen someday. Doesn't seem to bother or burden him whenever we talk about marriage. Which i really am attracted to. It's fairly too early to tell, but i find comfort in talking to him. I find peace letting out my emotions to him knowing he doesn't judge. I genuinely hopes and prays this is the one for me. I am not one to blindly expects people to keep their promises. But i have a feeling his promise to me was real and it turns up the way i wanted it to be.
I hope God agrees with my plans and set up an easy path towards my goal. Insha Allah.
Haih these days are very empty. I longed for that place and person i can call home. I've been commuting and making random places my temporary home for the longest time. I am still young but I am not getting younger. I want a home, i want you to be my home. And hopefully if we ever find ourselves getting there some day, i would look back at this post and remember how bad i wanted that to happen. So i can thank God and the universe for finally aligning our stars.
This post is a reminder that i am capable to fall in love, that i am capable of being emotionally attached to another person. I am never heartless. It's just that i care about people too much that it sometimes backfire on me. Coping mechanism struck me to put on a hard and steely facade. Deep inside i know i am not. It's okay to let down my guard and let people how gooey i can be.
I'm a broken soul. God sent you to fix it for me. I can't imagine losing you.
Please never leave.
